28/10

I'm drowning in furiousity I feel like flaying everyone right now. I feel like stabbing someone's chest repeatedly . I feel like sticking someone to the wall with a nailgun. I feel like choking someone to death.
I don't know, I feel like people are just damn noisy right now and every single thing they do irritates me.
I'm so mad right now my heart races...
I don't even know why.
And right now I'd kill only to break free.


I once heard that sleep deprivation will make your emotion goes haywire.. Heck, now I know what it feels like. Lack of sleep really stirs me up inside.
Or maybe, this is just the side effect of, you know, that time of the month.
Or maybe this has nothing to do with anything, maybe it's just me and my weird twisted mind.

Okay I feel a tad bit better now.
Have a nice day people.

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and in silence, she cried. the fact she's gradually losing her sanity kills her.
she's tired of losing sight of what she really wants and she wandered around trying to find direction but she ended up going nowhere. she's lostttttttttt and she's slowly losing her sanity.

Tapi saya lelah

"Menghadapi halangan dan kesulitan lebih mulia daripada mundur mencari ketenangan"

Ini bukan untuk kamu

Forgive me.
For I have sinned
For I have been out of track
For I have been damn indecisive,
For I have caused you a lot of frustration.

I've done wrong, and I'm sorry.
Please, please
Don't rush time,
Don't lose faith.

Never thought I'd lose my direction this way.

It was a cold night in early 2012 when I finally found the courage I never knew that I had been hiding under my skin in between my bones. I guess I was just saving it for the right time after all those years and I guess that night was it, the night that I was so convinced that I had the guts. I stood in the doorway at the bottom of the stairs. The cold air rushed in through the open door and shook the trees but my courage and my strong will held me still. I took my steps in and there it was, there you were. Perplexed, I stood there with frozen hands and frozen stares. My heart raced. ; I stood there still, astounded, never thought that I could be brought that far.

I was in the verge to burst in tears of joy when I found that the same night, was the end of  everything. All the things I thought I'd had, I never got to see.

I never wanted to remember it the way I do, but that was not something I could change.

I found the courage once before, I'm hoping to find it again soon.
Please, please, I'd kill only to find it back. Please, let me find back the courage I once had.

How Unpredictable

63

illegal bliss

there i go,

breaking my walls again.

trusting ones i should not trust,

going the path i should never have taken.

there's this perilous place everyone talks about, 

i once thought that it is safe to just wander around, i'll find my way back anyway.

"Run away while you still have the chance, run away before it's too late", you said.

but i was so obstinate about my decision, i walk a little further, i ran a little faster.

i'm in.

LOST

Berharap pada kemungkinan yang kecil,

Yang bahkan sebenarnya keberadaan kemungkinan itu masih dipertanyakan.

Memang, kadang optimis dan muluk beda tipis.

laper

I once heard that easily distracted people are usually more creative than regular people.

I must be really creative then :)

it's 1:46 a.m and I'm still stuck on my physics worksheets. Physics midterm test 5 hours and I'm not ready yet.

Even when I intended to open physics past papers, I ended up here, writing this post. And in front of me are 5 tabs consisting of blogger, facebook, tumblr and youtube... Damn I got distracted so easily.

So far AS level has been really frustating. I mean really really frustating. I thought IGCSE was the hardest but CIE proved me wrong. Pfff

I'm going back to physics then

Sleep tight people

Good night  

Bored to death

• 1: Name.
• Astrid Gloria Pepita
  
• 2: Zodiac sign
• Capricor
• 3: 3 Fears
• Darkness, Being left alone, Failure
• 4: 3 things I love
• Food, My family, My bestfriends
• 5: My best friend
• Ayu
• 6: Sexual orientation
• Straight
• 7: My best first date
• Forgot
• 8: How tall am I
• 160-ish
• 9: What do I miss
• School 
• 10: What time were I born
• I don't know ._.
• 11: Favourite color
• Champagne pink, Navy blue
• 12: Do I have a crush
• Yea
• 13: Favourite quote
• Havent found one yet
• 14: Favourite place
• Anywhere nice
• 15: Favourite food
• Cheesecake
• 16: Do I use sarcasm
• All the time
• 17: What am I listening to right now
• Runaway - Chrizzo & Maxim
• 18: First thing I notice in new person
• Eyes
• 19: Shoe size
• 39-40
• 20: Eye color
• Black-Brown
• 21: Hair color
• Black with a little bit of brown
• 22: Favourite style of clothing
• Anything that looks nice
• 23: Ever done a prank call?
• Yea
• 24: Meaning behind my URL
• I used to like white toblerone so much that I used it as my url
• 28: Favourite movie
• Nick and Norah's infinite playlist
• 29: Favourite song
• Clarity
• 30: Favourite band
• The Trees and The Wild <3
• 31: How I feel right now
• Dizzy
• 32: Someone I love
• is awesome
• 33: My current relationship status
• Taken
• 34: My relationship with my parents
• Is awesome
• 35: Favourite holiday
• Anywhere with my loved ones
• 36: Tattoos and piercing i have
• Dont have any
• 37: Tattoos and piercing i want
• havent thought of one yet
• 38: The reason I joined Tumblr
• I don't even know why but i like it so far
• 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
• No. Maybe
• 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
• Yea
• 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
• Ayu, yes on the cheek
• 42: When did I last hold hands?
• Forgot
• 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
• 20-30 mins
• 45: Where am I right now?
• Jakarta
• 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
• I've never been drunk before but if I were...My friends, I guess
• 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
• Depends
• 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
• Yes
• 49: Am I excited for anything?
• Right now? Nope
• 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
• Yes
• 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
• Not that often
• 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
• Forgot
• 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
• Ummm okay?
• 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
• Yes
• 55: What is something I disliked about today?
• Not going to school due to ever and headache
• 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
• Katy Perry, and Remedy Waloni. Met him once though
• 57: What do I think about most?
• Myself
• 58: What’s my strangest talent?
• I don't know
• 59: Do I have any strange phobias?
• Nope
• 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
• Both
• 61: What was the last lie I told?
• I told my mom there's no test today
• 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
• Both
• 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
• yes, nope
• 64: Do I believe in magic?
• No
• 65: Do I believe in luck?
• Yes
• 66: What's the weather like right now?
• Sunny
• 67: What was the last book I've read?
• Lipstick Jungle
• 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
• Yeap
• 69: Do I have any nicknames?
• Acit, Pepi (-_-)
• 70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?
• Fell off the window that I needed like 10 stitches on my head
• 71: Do I spend money or save it?
• Both
• 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?
• No :(
• 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?
• A totebag
• 74: Favourite animal
• Puppies
• 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
• Sleeping
• 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
• I dont know
• 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
• Anything with beats
• 78: How can you win my heart?
• Many ways
• 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
• "Told you I was feeling ill" ahaha
• 80: What is my favorite word?
• ahaha
• 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
• idk
• 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
• Stop minding your own business
• 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
• Nope
• 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
• Mind reading
• 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
• Do I look ugly?
• 86: What is my current desktop picture?
• Galaxy stuffs
• 87: Had sex?
• No
• 88: Bought condoms?
• No
• 89: Gotten pregnant?
• No
• 90: Failed a class?
• No
• 91: Kissed a boy?
• Yes
• 92: Kissed a girl?
• Yes
• 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
• No
• 94: Had job?
• No
• 95: Left the house without my wallet?
• Yea
• 96: Bullied someone on the internet?
• No
• 97: Had sex in public?
• No
• 98: Played on a sports team?
• Yes
• 99: Smoked weed?
• Nope
• 100: Did drugs?
• No
• 101: Smoked cigarettes?
• Nope
• 102: Drank alcohol?
• On christmas
• 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
• I used to be one
• 104: Been overweight?
• Always
• 105: Been underweight?
• Never
• 106: Been to a wedding?
• Yes
• 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
• Yes
• 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
• Yes
• 109: Been outside my home country?
• Yes
• 110: Gotten my heart broken?
• Yes
• 111: Been to a professional sports game?
• Yes
• 112: Broken a bone?
• No
• 113: Cut myself?
• Yes
• 114: Been to prom?
• Yes
• 115: Been in airplane?
• Yes
• 116: Fly by helicopter?
• No
• 117: What concerts have I been to?
• Cobra Starships, All time low, Jason mraz, The Trees and The Wild
• 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?.
• No
• 119: Learned another language?
• Yes
• 120: Wore make up?
• Yeap
• 123: Dyed my hair?
• Nope
• 124: Voted in a presidential election?
• Not legal yet
• 125: Rode in an ambulance?
• No
• 126: Had a surgery?
• Yeap
• 127: Met someone famous?
• Yep
• 128: Stalked someone on a social network?
• Always
• 130: Been fishing?
• Yeap
• 131: Helped with charity?
• Yes
• 132: Been rejected by a crush?
• No
• 133: Broken a mirror?
• Yep
• 134: What do I want for birthday?
• I don't know
• 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
• 2. Haven't thought of that yet
• 136: Was I named after anyone?
• No
• 137: Do I like my handwriting?
• Not really
• 138: What was my favourite toy as a child?
• Barbie
• 139: Favourite Tv Show?
• HIMYM
• 140: Where do I want to live when older?
• New York or Canada
• 141: Play any musical instrument?
• Piano, Violin and Guitar
• 142: One of my scars, how did I get it?
• Near my elbow, I fell of my bicycle when I was 10
• 143: Favourite pizza toping?
• Anything with cheese 
• 144: Am I afraid of the dark?
• Yea
• 145: Am I afraid of heights?
• Not really
• 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
• Yes
• 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
• Yea. A month ago
• 148: What I'm really bad at
• Not procrastinating
• 149: What my greatest achievements are
• Havent thought of that yet
• 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
• Forgot
• 151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery
• I'd travel the world
• 152: What do I like about myself
• Friendly?
• 153: My closest Tumblr friend
• idk
• 154: Something I fantasise about
• Living in ny
• 155: Any question you'd like
•