Ketancep

"What Susie says of Sally says more of Susie than of Sally,"

remember that.

this is where boredom leads me

• 1: What would you name your future daughter? i have no idea
• 2: Do you miss anyone? right now? not really
• 3: What if I told you that you were pretty? i'll thank you
• 4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?  yes
• 5: What are you looking forward to in the next week? to be happier and optimist basically. i've been quite emotional these past few weeks
• 6: Did you go out or stay in last night? i just curled in my bed
• 7: How late did you stay up last night? until 1 ish
• 8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? nope
• 9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? cooking
• 10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? yep
• 11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? i guess
• 12: Have you pretended to like someone? yes
• 13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? i guess, and i hope 
• 14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? always? no. but most of the times my bestfriends and my family can lift me up on my rough days
• 15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? depends
• 16: Think back five months ago, were you single? no
• 17: Have you ever cried from being so mad? yes, it happens quite often nowadays
• 18: Hold hands with anyone this week? no
• 19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? no 
• 20: Who did you last see in person? mom
• 21: What is the last thing you said out lot? "hai"
• 22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? no
• 23: Have you ever been to Paris? no
• 24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? nooooo. but i am able when i need to
• 25: Do you use chap stick? no. i hate the sticky feeling
• 26: Who did you last share a bed with? nobody
• 27: Are you listening to music right now? yep, fake diamonds by lana del rey. you should listen to it, go now.
• 28: What is something you currently want right now? mineral water
• 29: What is your current favorite song? fake diamonds by lana del rey, the helicat spangled shalala by arctic monkeys, and the acoustic version of norwegian wood
• 30: How is your heart lately? complicated. in the transition phase, i guess. but so far its going pretty well.
• 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? not really
• 32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? forgot
• 33: What do people call you? astrid
• 34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? yessss
• 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? right now? no
• 36: What are you listening to right now? dark paradise by lana del rey
• 37: What is wrong with you right now? i tend to overthink and i've been quite cynical lately. i don't know, February has been pretty rough.  these past few weeks i couldn't seem to find positive thoughts to keep me going. but these days things are working out  pretty well and everything's getting better, i guess.
• 38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? Yes!
• 39: Do you make wishes at 11:11? no
• 40: What is on your wrists right now? nothing. i hate the feeling of having something lying and weighing down my wrist 
• 41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected? i know this might seem quite cliche and cheesy, but i'm currently single and i'm happy
• 42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? this is a free shirt from school on the singapore trip
• 43: Do you hate Monday? no. in fact monday is my favorite day of the week
• 44: Have you hugged someone within the last week? no
• 45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? no
• 46: What were you doing at midnight last night? i don't know, i think i was just laying on bed thinking
• 47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? i kinda miss the way that  my life was going really well. but if i were given the chance of turning back, i'd still prefer on being where i am right now
• 48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? alone
• 49: Have you ever been to New York? nope. i wish i have.
• 50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? ummm i guess so

one of the best from the very best

mereka akan berkata
kesedihanmu akan pergi terhempas angin-
angin selatan yang penuh debu,
terbawa sampai ufuk ufuk timur terjauh

dan kau akan terdiam, bertanya dalam hati
kapan ini akan berakhir,
dan terbawa sampai ufuk timur terjauh
ufuk timur terjauh.

kau pernah melangkahkan kaki,
dan terjengkal.
sadar
dan melantunkan,
terang yang kau dambakan, hilanglah semua yang kau tanya

terang yang kau dambakan, hilanglah semua yang kau tanya
terang yang kau dambakan, hilanglah semua yang kau tanya.

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Empati Tamako.

it would be really nice to have this song played on my funeral one day. 

empati is the condition of positioning one's self on another one's condition, trying to or feeling completely one's feeling and motives, while Tamako is a subdistrict within Sangihe islands, which is Waloni's hometown. this song is just... beautiful. their songs are all soothing and calming yet very emotional. the one thing that keeps me falling for the trees and the wild is when you listen to their music, close your eyes and surrender, they lift you up flying high. 

here is the video :

and the acoustic version, which is just as beautiful

enjoy! 

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